Failure at seperating work from home..

I had a taste of separating home from work today and didn't and haven't done to well.
While I was in a meeting for our shift change this morning I was informed that while everyone in the assisted living homes including all staff(and me=(...) were sick Monday it followed to a resident that I had grown to become REALLY close to. He was 60 years old and non verbal due to his brain injury. He was very vocal and loved to hold hands and be in constant physical contact. He laughed and did things to make us laugh and frustrated us all at the same time.
Tuesday night he became really ill and the staff took him to the hospital Wednesday afternoon after high blood pressure. He became unconscious after and shortly after suffered a heart attack and passed away at 8pm.
When I was told I felt like I was hit with a big rig!
I was planning on going in and seeing his smiley curious face today and instead passed by his room several times and waited for him to come out  following his staff member and being his noisy happy self.
I find it hard to not take feelings home and I hope to learn to separate the two very soon. I have a 40 min drive home from work and usually can separate frustration or being tired but I could not kick this.
Anyway I guess my point is I hope we all learn to separate work from home.

Now that I have started my first week of classes I have started to realize this is going to take EFFORT. I am juggling home, school, and work...which I really think is not going to stay full time. 

I think what will keep me going an driving me to keep going with school is my family. I am the first in my immediate family to graduate high school and the first to go to college and make it this far. My mom was talking about her work schedule changing in a few weeks and I reminded her when I was pregnant with my son I was in school from 8am-12 pm, worked at the after school program from 2-6 pm and then worked my evening job from 6:30-2am. If I could do it she could switch from working afternoons to nights. She then told me "Shelia Marie I'm not super woman!"

I realized people expect so much out of me because I expect so much out of myself. If I want to succeed in school I need to focus on school! 

I am planning on focusing on school and showing my son that I am doing this not only for myself but for him. WE will succeed together. I hope I can give my point of view to the other members of the DL community. I want them to know I am here and I can relate to lots of different situations people go through and If I am not able to, I can LISTEN and if needed give support.

When studying I have started listening to different calm study music from youtube...try it out.=]

PS. We had an ultrasound. BABY in the oven is a BOY=]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rws1FHmQGS0

Day 1

My name is Shelia Hammond. I am 23 years old. I have a 2 1/2 year old son and I am 5 1/2 months pregnant. This is my first year here at HSU and I plan to stick to the very end.=] Since I was younger working with my mom in daycare centers I've always known I wanted to work with children. I started a new job in 2009 1:1 with special needs children at a brand new after school program, where I was the VERY FIRST inclusion assistant out on the floor. It was QUITE an experience!! After about a week of working with/ trying not to be beat down by 6-8 year olds, I figured out THIS is what I want to do!

As of right now I still work part time with the organization and started working full time at a group home for adults who have acquired brain injuries. I help them with everyday life things and take them on community outings. I like working there for now but I am still pulled toward special needs children and their families. Families I have seen through out our program feel lost and are SO excited when they see all of the resources they are able to get to, but just never had someone point them out.

I am outspoken and LOVE my family. Right now is a very difficult turning point in my life and I think this blog will be awesome for me to share what is going on in my education, work, and personal life.